I need some anesthesia

How can you love when you don’t love yourself at all?
‘Cause I’ve been trying so hard
To find my way out of the depths of this hole that I’ve dug
Or have I gone too far?

Let me show you
I’ve been there too
I don’t know if I can get through (if I can get through)

Put me under
‘Cause I can’t stand the pain
Lightening and thunder
It’s all that’s ever been

So make me count backwards from 10
I’ll be asleep by then
So put me under
I can’t stand the pain

I need some anesthesia
I need some anesthesia

How can you run when you don’t know what you’re running from?
No, I haven’t stopped
I’ve got scrapes, I’ve got cuts
‘Cause sometimes I might beat myself up

So when it’s too much

Put me under
‘Cause I can’t stand the pain
Lightening and thunder
It’s all that’s ever been

So make me count backwards from 10
I’ll be asleep by then
So put me under
‘Cause I can’t stand the pain

10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5 seconds away
I’m 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 seconds away

Put me under
‘Cause I can’t stand the pain
Lightening and thunder
It’s all that’s ever been

So make me count backwards from 10
I’ll be asleep by then
So put me under
‘Cause I can’t stand the pain

I need some anesthesia (10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5 seconds away)
I need some anesthesia (I’m 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 seconds away)

10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5 seconds away
I’m 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 seconds away