B G#m E F# E F#

[Verse]

    B
My dad says that I’d probably have more fans
N.C.
If I could learn to sing about some happier shit
N.C.
Instead of wallowing in my shortcomings
N.C.
My gross insecurities, be less narcissistic
                   B
Maybe show some humility

[Interlude]

B G#m E F# E F#

[Verse 2]

    B
My mom sighs “wow” from under her breath
            G#m
She wonders, how the hell I can live like this
    E
My shelf life, it expired months ago
             F#
But I keep tricking the ones
            E              F#   B
I claim to love into these situations

[Chorus]

B
Like I’m walking backwards
E
these wasted years
B
I’m walking backwards
E
these wasted years
G#m        E      F#       G#m
And still nobody knows my name
           E            F#     G#m
My shitty songs, or my chubby face
           E          F#   G#m
I want to know how to be okay
                          E
Do the things that people do
          F#          C#m
to find a home in the end

[Verse 3]

C#m
'Cause I’ve lived my whole life
     E
so afraid of getting hurt
                        B
That I’ve never really been hurt
                   G#m
I’ve never really been hurt
        C#m
And the best I can hope
                     E
Is to zone out in a room
E
Full of people that I don’t know
      B
On a hospital bed
            G#m
Is that too obvious?
      C#m
I can say I want to heal,
       E
I can say I want to change
           B
But really

[Bridge]

B                                     E
Well, I want to wake up and maybe be better
                                          B
I want to come through and not be second guessed
                                    E
I want to find the money to fix my nose
E
And learn to breathe without pacing
                            G#m
I don’t want to be depressed
                  E            F#
I want to find a haircut that fits me
      G#m                     E
That hasn’t been co-opted by Nazis
      F#              G#m
I’ll settle for some rest,
               E
I want to move on
           F#          G#m
I want to feel more important
                  E
I’m trying to be fine
             F#              B
I swear I’m trying to be my best
B                                     E
Well, I want to wake up and maybe be better
                                          B
I want to come through and not be second guessed
                                    E
I want to find the money to fix my nose
E
So I can sing without pacing
                             G#m
I don’t want to be depressed
                  E            F#
I want to find a haircut that fits me
      G#m                   E
That hasn’t been stolen by Nazis
      F#              G#m
I’ll settle for some rest
                   E
I'm trying to move on
               F#         G#m
I'm trying to feel more important
              E
I want to be fine
             F#              B
I swear I’m trying to be my best

[Chorus]

B
I’m walking backwards
E
these wasted years
B
I’m walking backwards
E
these wasted years
G#m        E      F#      G#m
And still nobody knows my name
           E            F#     G#m
My shitty songs, or my chubby face
           E          F#   G#m
I want to know how to be okay
                          E
Do the things that people do
          F#           B
to find a home in the end