I don't wanna smile while I drown that'd be acting I don't wanna live in the now it ain't lasting Don't be in rush growing up it's not freedom Devil speaking lies to your heart can't believe him Every night I dream it's a break from my conscience They say that I'm weak it's okay, least I'm honest I remember pulling in my drive car freezing Just to have a minute to myself keep breathing Said keep breathing Time been catching up, know I stress too much I'm afraid, so I break shoot the messenger Should build a cabin in the woods never call back When expectations kill your mood whatchu call that? Going through changes, these pages, I can't rewrite at all Lay awake in these ruins, tell myself that I'm human I don't wanna smile while I drown that'd be acting I don't wanna live in the now it ain't lasting Don't be in rush growing up it's not freedom Devil speaking lies to your heart can't believe him Every night I dream it's a break from my conscience They say that I'm weak it's okay, least I'm honest I remember pulling in my drive car freezing Just to have a minute to myself keep breathing Said keep breathing