The shreds of memories stand strong and never fall The edges frayed, seeming fragile after all And I’m ashamed by my blunt personality And I’m ashamed by how transparent I can really be And all the memories crushed, diced, and thrown about My brain convulses with every urge to let it out With mud obstructing my chance at seeing clearly My ineptitude leaves me distorting There’s not soul who can truly understand me There’s not a voice in the world that reaches out to me When they try, there’s only one thing that I can hear The screams of monkeys overflowing my ears No matter how many times I look at the past If I could, I would make it all disappear at last I know how it seems that I could care less Inside I’m a literal mess Call me foolish when the breakdown’s only begun Maybe things will end by jumping off the hands of temptation And I’ll be in free-fall forever And I’ll be unloving forever My mouth is full of the unforgiving memories And every day, they’re distorted even more, it seems I hope you’ll never observe this horrid side of me ‘Cus I can’t stomach these feelings of morbidity Within a hazy fog, I’ve been searching For something beautiful, something worth anything I’m nothing special, I’m lower than stupidity A crowd of monkeys only laughing at me I could never see a future for a person like me Every little damn thing coming out of my mouth sounds like a madman Nothing can make me laugh anymore Forgiveness is all I ask for Every night devoid of love, I wanna scream and cry Don’t even try to tell me otherwise, it’s nothing but sympathetic lies But really, I’m fine - I’m just a little strange So don’t call me lonely anymore I’m laughing out loud My body paralyzed The tears are filling up I’m breaking down knowing our views were all for naught And every corner of our consciousness is filled to the brim with twisted thoughts Because of the years my heart spent filled with hate It’s now in a stagnant state Thinking all about how I could make the time go by My mouth is spilling out the pieces from these fragmented words of mine And even these lyrics are coated in lies It’s pretty deceitful, so may I laugh?