I've lost my voice, I've said all I have to say. You're thick as porcelain, as clear as cellophane. I miss the nervous shakes, and miss the way it hurt, the way it killed to think, that I had you first.. I had you first So then I force a smile, I take the stage, Now my knees are weak try to concentrate, I'm losing air with every single breathe that I take.. I look into your eyes, see the chemicals, you're the whitest white; you've become a ghost. You're dead to me so why can't I let u go?? The phone is like a knife I drive into my ear. I had a love affair with distance and with fear. The bus is like a hearse, driving me from her, she's as black as white, she the perfect curse. She's the perfect curse So then I force a smile, I take the stage, Now my knees are weak try to concentrate, I'm losing air with every single breathe that I take.. I look into your eyes, see the chemicals, you're the whitest white; you've become a ghost. You're dead to me so why can't I let u go?? And if the walls had eyes, we would never lie. You could come down on me. And if u saved my life, how could I survive? You're the one that made me this way. So then I force a smile, I take the stage, Now my knees are weak try to concentrate, I'm losing air with every single breathe that I take.. I look into your eyes, see the chemicals, you're the whitest white; you've become a ghost. You're dead to me so why can't I let u go??